Post-less in Santa Barbara

Yesterday I didn’t post.  It was the 3rd day since November 2nd that I didn’t post.

Why?  Well, truth be told, it was because I was in a real funk.I had (and still have) tons of ideas swirling around in my head, but none would leave the white padded room that is my brain matter. I could not think clearly. My neurons were not firing correctly.

The feeling was analogous to having to sneeze, but not being able. Get it?

I tried to write, but what I wrote was not authentic.  I showed the HOTY (a/k/a Husband of the Year) my writing and he said, “Don’t post it.  It’s not right.” Well, that sent me into even more of a tizzy….because I thought I could push through (as I’ve always done in my life!).

So, last night, I turned off the light and went to sleep, post-less. I felt frustrated with myself and even a little sad….wondering: “What’s wrong with me?”

As Finally Five reminds me daily, “Silver Linings are when something good comes out of something bad.”

So, when I woke up in the middle of the night with one of my gazillion hot flashes, I decided to look for the Silver Linings in my inability to write yesterday (I figure that if I can find SL’s in the bottomless pit of chemo despair, I can certainly find them now!).

Silver Linings:

1. I can now acknowledge the fact that it’s ok to have an off day.
2. I am now in a place that better enables me to authentically feel life’s ups and downs.
3. Walking away from a project to clear my mind, heart and soul is incredibly fruitful because today I had an immense amount of clarity and focus.

Hope these Silver Linings are applicable to your life.

The act of putting pen to paper encourages pause for thought, this in turn makes us think more deeply about life, which helps us regain our equilibrium.

~Norbet Platt